Youthfulness brings along with it a certain sense of naivete that lends itself well to the law of attraction. Children see resources as never-ending; even when parents communicate the struggle that comes along with maintaining a certain lifestyle, children believe firmly in the ability to maintain and increase the flow of abundance. Children ask for things because they believe they can have them. It is only with age and the assumption of responsibility that this gets compromised. Children are taught to worry about money, for it does not come naturally. When they are one day faced with the challenges of balancing rent and gas and heat and phone and cable bills, they realize how daunting it is to have everything that they want. They no longer believe in the constant flow of abundance, the transitional nature of energy, the power of attraction. They begin to fear, and with this, they grow up.
I see this reflected in my goddaughters, my niece and nephew. Just recently my nephew was watching videos on my mother's tablet, and I happened to peek over his shoulder to realize that the videos he'd selected were not free. He was childishly purchasing episodes of his favorite show on her Kindle because the bill was not his problem. His concern was solely that his level of enjoyment be maintained. I asked my mother about it and she quickly swooped in to better monitor his video selection. My nephew shrugged, not understanding what the difference was between one click and the next. All he knew was that this was what he wanted, and therefore, he should have it.
We lose this, as adults, or at the very least I acknowledge that I do not see this present in many of the adults I know, not even myself. We do not indulge in a carefree manner as we once did as children. Every single indulgence costs us, and so it is calculated, exacted, never whimsical or spontaneous. We think about how the indulgence is going to prevent us from having something else we may want. We negotiate between indulgences. We worry that we are indulging too much. We anticipate the consequences of an indulgence, and therefore we attract the consequences upon ourselves.
Het-Heru is the aspect of NTR that represents how we relate to the flow of abundance. When we worry, we place bricks in the flow, and if enough bricks are laid, the dam we've created stops up the flow to such an extent that it feels as if there is no flow. This inevitably causes us to worry further, which only continues to limit our access to the flow. We must come to realize that the flow has not ceased - only that we have restricted our access to it.
We can release the dam and tear down the bricks when we embrace the qualities of Het-Heru wholeheartedly: joy, pleasure, love, passion - and yes, even spontaneous indulgence, without worry, fear, or reservation. We can maintain constant access to the flow of abundance by choosing to believe as children do: that resources are never-ending, that we deserve to have what we want, that we can not only maintain our current lifestyle, but invoke increase simply by believing in it.
Worrying about not having enough is a choice. I say this not to minimize the impact of an overdrawn account, nor to encourage foolish and careless behavior. We can be responsible without worrying if we understand and embrace the tarot principle known as the Wheel of Fortune. While today we may fall from grace, tomorrow we shall rise to excellence. Het-Heru charges us to maintain htp - inner peace and supreme satisfaction - even when the flow feels only like a trickle, because this too shall pass. The trickle is simply a challenge, an occasion that we must rise to by choosing to enjoy the lean moments as we would the hearty.